I'm a YouTube addict! D:

RING DING DOOOOOONG <3 <3 Believe me, I tried to dance. So far, I can only get the ringdingdong part correct. HAHAHA!

reminisce, just for abit.

听见星星叹息 用寂寞的语气
告诉不眠的云 是否放弃日夜 追寻风的动静
心事不停累积 变成脸颊的泪滴
你始终没留意 我特别在乎你
你却像风一样 左顾右盼而行

全世界只有你不懂我爱你
我给的不只是好朋友而已
每个欲言又止浅浅笑容里
难道你没发现我渴望讯息

我应该如何让你知道我爱你
连星星都知道我心中秘密
今夜在你窗前下的一场雨
是我暗示你我有多(么)委屈

你还不懂雨永远不会停

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I listened to this song... like about 10 years ago? when I was in primary school. I thought it has a nice tune then. So when I finally youtube this song again 10years later, I found that it's actually quite... meaningful? You know when we're young, we only cared about the tune of the music. But now that we slowly mature, we start to appreciate the written lyrics. At least, i think i do. I mean, for this song I feel each and every sentence makes sense. It's like a story. I really really like this song. Give it a play, seriously.

I am NINEteen today

...and yet I have to do my sis' homework because we had dinner outside. HARHAR. Loser, I know.
Okay, so this year's birthday both left me with sad and happy memories.
Sad cos I've been scolded by my parents... yet again.
Happy cos I have my dear dear dear dear friends who actually took time to plan something for me.

Last friday, 23JULY2010, had dinner with part of 2s04. Bex, meiqi, ibra, joel, weiming and aaron. Had Sakae even though it is not halal, oh dear. But then, we had dinner like normal. And I mean, really normal. With limmeiqi being the center of attraction because of her bimbotic-ness. HAHA! Suddenly a cake just appeared and they started singing screaming the happy birthday song. SUPER paiseh please. And they bought me a backpack! Awesome compartments. I can put so many things insiiiiiiide! :D Arcade was fun too :D

Saturday, 24JULY2010, played beach volleyball with ah meng, sam gaga, hock, hongkiat,sheryl and ... friends. Well, it wasn't exactly a birthday celebration but I love volleyball. Okay! Had dinner at sizzlers with Tai, mandy and ht. Their treat. But was late for the dinner cos I was watching fireworks with sam gaga. BUT THE FIREWORKS WAS NAISE. hmm. ok. so was the dinner. Then ht had to go off to meet his lovers so the rest of us went to play L4D2. omgosh after months of not playing, I FORGOT THE KEYS. Now, if only they had played starwars lego on wii...

Sunday, 25JULY2010, had lunch with ss, py, jess, sam gaga, zu, ethel and jienarn. They made a cake from icing room! HAHAH. Other than the fruits inside, I LOVE IT. omg, speaking about the fruits makes me sick. Ok, anyway. Hur. It was quite a short one. After lunch, ss, sam gaga and zu came over to play wii and laugh at twits' facebook. Truly hilarious. 6.30pm went to kbox golden with ss and sam gaga. Smuggled chicken rice in omg. took turns to eat so as not to get caught. HAHA! PRO. Oh. Sam gaga got me a LADY GAGA BIOGRAPHY! :3 HOHOHO!

Monday, 26JULY2010. Bloody boring day. Had dinner at night at Ellenborough market cafe at swissotel merchant. HAH. RECIEVED MY BELOVED GAZETTE SHIVER SINGLE WITH DVD FROM CDJAPAN OMG THANKS TOMEI! <3 Ripped the package off and watched the pv. omggggg my REITA <3 uber bloody hawt.

Tmrw, 27JULY2010, Cash studio with tomei. WOOOHOO.

Wednesday, 28JULY2010, Volleyball training! <3 ok, no link. DINNER with jq, jiannuren, siang and sam gaga. :D

Thanks to those who fb-ed and smsed me happy birthday. Love you guys so so so so so so so so so much. Really. Who needs a boyfriend when you have so many wonderful people already? haha! OK KIDDING! For those "close friends" who doesn't even know it's my birthday today, shame on you (: Actually I don't care also lah.
Evil pig still MIA ):

down and under

I guess it's just PMS. Teared abit during kbox and on the bus just now, omg so paiseh can. Just thinking about leaving to china makes me feel kinda lonely alr. ): and that makes me... sad. The thought of not seeing my loved ones for almost half a year is just depressing. I won't be celebrating christmas and the new year with them. I'm also afraid. Afraid that when I'm finally back, everything will be different. I'm just afraid the whole world will move on without me.
Even though I'm really afraid, I'll still go. I wanna prove to my family that I can also be independent. Actually you can say that I'm throwing tantrums. When I'm at home, it just feels kinda like everyone has something to criticize about me. Because the whole world will be going to university and I won't, it makes me a loser to them, i feel. They pick on every little thing I do. From taking an afternoon nap to sleeping too late to sleeping too early to waking up late to waking up early to not making my bed to watching too much dramas to reading too many manga to going out too late to going out too much to playing too much wii games...everything.
And it doesn't help that my evil pig went MIA. I'm just worried.
Ok, I shall make a proper birthday post tmrw. kthanksbye. :D

Orson Oh should be burnt alive!

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
yoz.

whyjelly says:
helloooo

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
Happy Birthday!!

whyjelly says:
errrrrrrrrrrrr
it's not my birthday yet lah dey!

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
D8
it's an early greeting : D

whyjelly says:
excuses!
D<

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
ok, i'll wish again tml : (

whyjelly says:
TOMORROW'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY EITHER!
D<
haiyoooooo
why does everyone think my birthday is on 23?

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
erm... it's like the 12 days of Christmas!
12 days of Yunjia's Bdae!

whyjelly says:
excuses!
D<

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
D8
okay. i'll wish again on sunday then : (

whyjelly says:
sunday's not my birthday!
)<

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
i meant at sunday 23:59. : D

whyjelly says:
right
you just went fb right?!

Orson [Never ending cycle of Black & White] says:
nooooo, i remember your bdae since your cousin brought the dvd!

I need and want.

I need a backpack to bring to xiamen. Thing is, I'm thinking of getting one from 'spin-the-bottle' but EVERYONE has one. ok, exaggerating here. Then i'm thinking of a leather kuku bag. But so exp pls. Might as well save up for a PEN. )<>

when there's nothing else to say

WELL!

...

err....

Ok, I'm just bored. I don't know what to write. I bet everyone's sick and tired of me ranting about the world and how life's unfair. THEN. Should I write something that is... not so gloomy? OKAY! You've got it!

...

err...

Seriously I can't think of any. OKAY! I got it! I'M A SIZE M NOW LIKE OMGWTFBBQ?! And my jeans size went down by one. BUT, I'm still not a size 8. Le sigh. Gotta work harder. Arcade-ing with tomei tmr. Hopefully I'll lose some fats! :D

Something interesting that happened today? Hrn. I bought a dress for social night, nail polish and omg, a lipstick. I tried to apply it on just now, and my lips looked like a clown's. I guess I need to brush up on my putting-on-lipstick skill. Shit to the max. After the lipstick shall be walking with high heels. Shit to the whole world. But I shall persevere. GOGOGO!

ok, it's 2207. I shall sleep. Good night, world.

Ok, so now I got accepted.

Yeah, I think i didn't mention this previously? But Xiamen university has already sent an email informing me of my enrollment. Ok, so is this good or bad news? Good, of cos, if you're simply looking at the acceptance part. Today my mom cried. Saying that she might need to undergo another operation. *MIGHT* Our family doctor told her she should expect one. But then again, the doctor might not be right. He was just giving his opinion. Ultimately there's still the CT scans and the X-ray before they decide whether she needs to be operated on. She was crying and saying if the thing is really cancerous she is thinking of not operating and just live on for another 10years or so. What the fuck seriously I don't like how she's thinking ok. I guess I was more angry with her than being sad. She said cos if the operation fails she might just "go". But if no surgery is done then she still get to live about 10 more years. So she rather "go later", when we're adults, than risk "going now". And she was like telling me that if she goes suddenly, i have to be sure to find a stable job like being a teacher because it's seem to her like it's my passion to be one. Seriously I find this very much like those drama shows. Tell me, do I have the right to be angry with her?

Ok, the point is, if that thing is cancerous, do you think i can still study happily there? Any retard knows the answer is a bloody no. But of cos, it is not confirmed whether the thing is cancerous. But my mom encouraged me to go. She said she'll be fine. Right. Fuck. Why this? Seriously I can't stand it. I guess I should just hope that it's nothing serious.

And that evil pig never sms me today. Nobody to cheer me up. ): Ok, is this miracle or what. He just texted me right after i finished that sentence.

Boyfriends

Ok, so I'm weird. This happens when I have no work and so school - I
tend to "over-reflect". Yes, I know, how can someone over-reflect
right? I thought too deeply (disclaimer: deeply doesn't necessarily
mean maturely) into the 'boyfriend' issue. Ok, I know, why am I
thinking about it right? Well, there's this irritating girl in fb who
keeps updating about her crush and it is, erm, annoying. She's bloody
lovesick. And actually I don't see the point in her posting it in fb
for like 200people to see. What she trying to show anyway?
Ok sorry for digressing. And also I have a close friend who is kinda
lovesick also. Hurhurhur!
So! Ok. I shall get on with my story. Some of you might know, I have
this collegue of mine who is close to me. Let's just say he's actually
a funny and nice person luh, though he is always physically abusing
me. He has a girlfriend alr. But still, I like him. Ok wait, before
you jump into any conclusions and go spread rumor, pls finish reading
this post first. So after my contract ended, I miss him alot and I
kept thinking about him. At first I thought I had a crush on him. But
then I thought again, why do I miss him? Which part of him do I
actually miss? I miss him because at work he makes me less lonely. I
miss him because he is a fun person to be with. But when I'm with him
my heart doesn't pound like crazy. In fact, I feel very comfortable
with him. And after smsing everyday, I find that I don't miss him that
much alr. This kind of feeling is like when your friend just migrated.
For the first few days/weeks you miss them like crazy. But after a
while other things starts taking up space in your mind and 'miss'
turns into 'remember'. If I really did have a crush on him, I would
have miss him like crazy even now and my heart would have pound out of
my body everytime we SMS. But it didn't. So I miss him, because he is
a good friend. And I feel that because I am not working, there's
actually no point in keeping contact anymore. So I felt sad as I
stepped out of the office on my last day. But he still text me
everyday. That means he treats me as a friend, not just a collegue.
For that, I am grateful. Moral of the story? Think twice before you
think you have a crush on someone.
But thinking about it, if all guys makes me feel like they're my
friends, then I guess I wouldn't have a boyfriend in my life. Having a
boyfriend is just like having a best friend whom you can get sexual
pleasures from. True?

Sent from my iPhone

stolen meme!

1. Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
Though I have no ex... but I guess I'll put the fire out? I mean, who would let someone else die like that?

2. Your best friend tells you she is pregnant. What is your reaction?
OMG! How was the sex?

3. When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
hmmm. Punch ah. Just now. Cos my sis accidentally punched my mouth.

4. What is the last thing you spent money on?
Fruits.

5. Do you think you gained or lost weight this past month?
I do think my pants are more loose now. But maybe the washing machine stretched it!

6. Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos?
Puffy i guess. :/

7. The first person on your friends list just called you a bitch. What do you do?
And that would be... Alvin Lim. I guess it'll be ok, cos he's always joking.

8. Congratulations! You just had a son. What’s his name?
Hmmm. Can't think of one.

9. Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What’s her name?
Alice! :D kelly would be nice too!

10. What are you craving right now?
Erm, instant noodles. ._.

11. What was the last thing you cried about?
Erm, not being able to get into uni.

12. When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, do you keep it or tell the cashier to keep it?
There's no 2cents in Singapore but heck I'll take it and put in my coins bank.

13. What color is your tissue box?
PINK!

14. Do you have a ceiling fan in your bedroom, and if so, is there dust on that fan?

What kind of question is that? No it's not a wall fan and yes there is alot of dust on the fan.

15. What was the last voicemail you received about?
last voicemail was from work. Heck, actually I wasn't even working anymore but i went back to visit. And so I just listened to voicemails. Yep, the last one's from a passanger named yusoff. Apparently he left sth on board.

16. Have you ever blocked someone on Facebook?
Nope. Only ignored.

17. Scariest thing you’ve experienced in the last year?
I guess it's when my mom actually got admitted to hospital. Thought I really lost her. xD

18. Do you wear a name tag at work?
NAW. They didn't give me.

19. What kind of car do you want?
WANT. Just a BMW?

20. What do you order when you go to Burger King?
Tendergrill meal.

21. Have you ever had a garage sale?
nah.

22. What color is your cell phone?
black and white. But the cover's orange.

23. What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?
yesterday. I drank my bro's bluberry vodka. He's underaged dammmit.

24. Are you happy right now?
YEP!

25. Who came over to your house last?
yesterday... My bro's friends. Kenneth, flower, boon, kokjun, waterfall.

26. Do you drink beer?
Yeah.

27. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
Naw.

28. What is your favorite key on your key chain?
I used to have one with a jacket on. But it's missing now.

29. What was the last movie you watched at home?
MOVIE! Erm, it's really long ago! I guess it's some horror movie with Jess and SS?

30.What is in your pocket?
no pockets here!

31. Who introduced you to your bf/gf/husband/wife?
-not valid-

32. Where do you hurt?
knees. Arms, ass, back.

33. Has someone ever made you a build a bear?
nope.

34. What’s something fun you did today?
Today. The day just started.

35. What is your favorite aisle at Target?
I can't remember what there is over there. But I remembered i like the toys sectiion. :D

36. When is your birthday?
26jul

37. Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
Naw

38. How many states in the US have you been to?
California.Like San fransisco, Las Vegas, LA.

39. What kind of milk do you drink?
I personally like greenfarm's.

40. What are you going to do after this?
Go to sleep

41. Who was the last person you went shopping with?
Ibra and Joel theo

42. What is something you need to go shopping for?
A dress for social night. Or I'm gonna dress like some clubber.

43. Do you have the same first name as one of your relatives?
Nope.

44. What kind of car do your parents drive?
Estima

45. Are you rich?
Middle class.

46. What color is your couch?
Blue and yellow checkered

48. What famous person do you look like?
I dunno!

49. Does someone like you right now?
I dunno!

50. Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. Would you pass or fail?
FAIL LAH

51. Favorite pop-tart flavor?
Don't eat that!

52. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
I guess I know.

53. What are your plans for the weekend?
Social Night with Ibrahim. Wahaha!

54. Do you like the color green?
I guess so. Quite like yellow.

55. Who was the last person you sent an instant message to?
That tikopeh/evil pig.

56. Last restaurant you went to?

Hurn. I can't really remember! I guess it'll be Marche on Tai's birthday?

57. How many hours did you sleep for last night?
7hours

58. Do you swear at your parents?
Nope! Imma nice.

59. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Sure. HAHA!

60. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
Oh yes.

61. What is your ringtone?
errrrrrrrrr. Some iphone lousy ringtone.

62. What were you doing at midnight last night?
smsing that tikopeh and ss. Playing Resident Evil.

I type with my right pinkie up.

That's what I've realised. And I think it's absolutely spastic. I need to get rid of this habit, yes.

And so these few days, I'm still rotting at home. I feel lost, not having a job and all. Just idling; lepak-ing all day. Go out with friends, do housework, shopping with mom, sms-ing that tikopeh when he's working, watch dramas, read novels and anime, sleep.... like I don't know which direction I'm supposed to go. But then, I don't wanna work now cos if I'm going xiamen in august, that means I'll only work for one month like what's the point? I can't learn anything in one month.

Ok, speaking of Xiamen university, good news!

THEY JUST RECEIVED MY EMAIL LIKE WELL DONE LOR. After 4 emails, they finally recieved ONE. They'll get back within 3 working days meaning... i should get my result by wed? manz.

You know I have this funny feeling that I wont be going to xiamen afterall. Somehow, I can feel that my dad is quite reluctant, after realising that there's some kind of black spots in my mom's abdomen. My dad's like that. He loves my mom alot. Too much that he's too protective of her and it's annoying sometimes. Like, he'll lecture us if we let our mom do too much housework. And especially like now, when our mom is sick, he keeps lashing at us and sometimes even being very unreasonable. I know it's not my mom's fault for falling sick. But it gets irritating sometimes when she KNOWS she's sick and yet she still insists on doing certain housework even though the house looks clean. Then my dad will come back home and see her panting while, say, vacuuming the floor and he'll scold us for slacking. Like, I just don't see the point in vacuuming the floor every bloody day.

ok I shall stop ranting. Disclaimer: I don't hate my parents. i'm just randomly saying.

Anyway for now, I'm partially paralysed. I think I pulled a muscle of my left leg and now I can't walk properly. It hurts. I think even my butt's swollen. Wait, maybe it's just big. My arms feels dislocated and I can't hold things that are more than a kilogram. ): I can't even iron my clothes! Damn. Can someone volunteer and give me a massage?

----fanpost----

OMG SuG's Koakuma sparkling PV is awesome!!! Takeru is super cute ok ok okokokokkkk! *melts* Anyway, I do think Yuuji looks more and more like Kamenashi Kazuya of KUNNT KATTUN. That pouty lips omg SMEX TTM :D :D

Yep. This is yuji. Kame is...

They're like twins.

Ok, SuG's over.

GazettE next, as usual.

Reita's hawt.

Ok, GazettE over.

Arashi. You just have to watch their wii cm. SUPER CUTE. Yes.

Anyway I do feel like a Johnny's freak. I mean omg, I know all the members of Arashi, NEWS, HSJ, KATTUN, SMAP, Kinki kids... and I can't memorise chemistry definitions. D:

Busy, not busy, busy, not busy

It just feels weird. I'm so free, I feel weird. I know I'm weird, but something is just not right. I guess I'm just too used to working. Yes, I do miss working. And for that people think I'm weird.
I'm signing up for SAT2 for math level 2 and physics. Ok, random much.
Anyway, I just realised why Xiamen university hasn't got back to me yet. The instructions said to put "application" in my email but I typed "admission" instead. WTF. Budden imma gonna call 'em tmr! :D
So these few days, I spent my time going out, spending money, re-watching dramas, disturbing the tikopeh, doing housework, reading manga. So no life please.
Tmr I'll be going shopping with my mom then go driving lessons. I wonder if I can get my licsense before I fly off to Xiamen. :/ Ah wells.

blogging is how i keep my mind working

and yes, if not, I'll have dementia soon. For some reason, I can't seem to remember what happened in the past. Like, wow the month of June seems to slip by in the blink of an eye. When you ask about work, I can only remember like the last few days of it. In the middle is like a void. LIKE, I just can't remember. I need a prompt, like I'll only remember what happened when i look at my organiser. What's happening to me? I don't like this. ))): On the bus home after work, all I think about is the fun things that happened at work and cute guys. I don't want to be like that. It's so different from what I used to think about in the bus. In the past, I observed my surroundings and criticized on the ugly behaviour of human beings, or think about physics and chemistry. I feel insecure now. I can feel the change in me but I just can't accept it. I can't really explain it but it's like I am changing bit by bit but I don't want to. I feel insecure cos I'm afraid I'll be some kind of bimbo and useless person who only thinks about guys and having fun. That's not who I want to be, definitely. But the change is like automated you know? I didn't notice it until recently when work's ended and I have got alot more time to myself. I'm gonna resist that change, now that I'm more sane. HAHA.
But of course, there are some changes that I should welcome. Yes, after sy and hock's "I think you dress like a guy", I was traumatised. Seriously. I didn't know that. I thought it was just one of my parent's over-exaggerated comments. I bought a skirt and a dress. Yes, after discount. CHEAP dresses. Why cheap? Cos I am not ready to wear them yet. I feel comfortable in pants. I can run, jump, and do so many things. Skirt is absolutely restricting. TTM! I don't find the purpose in wearing skirt but then, since wearing skirt can improve my image by a little (not like I have any to start with) why not? I have to wear them sooner or later, cos im not a booch. I just need some time to get used to this whole skirt etiquette thing, like how i shouldn't sit with my legs wide opened, how i should walk the right way and all sorts of rules. Hopefully by 2012 I'll be able to wear skirt like it's a normal thing. Hopefully. Encourage me.

randomly here and there

After a long while, I decided to post an entry. Let's see, for the past month, I've been working intensively, like some full time worker. I practically spent more time at the airport than at home. And Ive met some really really nice people there. So yeah on the last day I cried. Luckily those whom I'm closer to are not there, if not I think the situation will be worse. ): Kris gave me a KENZO flower perfume like wow? xD Well, that's the only gift I recieved, unless you count in Aslinda's chinchow.
ok, emotions aside.
I think the GazettE should be made a legend. Why? Cos they are awesome like mad. I especially LOVE their DIM album. Full of great songs. Have been listening to the album on the way to work (cos the duration of the trip to work is exactly one DIM album long). I especially love "In the middle of chaos" "Headache Man" Shiroki Yuutsu" "Leech" "Distress and Coma" "13stairs[-]1" ok if i continue i'll be naming the whole album. :P So you can just imagine how excited I am for my birthday presents. HAHAHA! SHIVERRRRRRRRRRRR <3 <3 Awesome much. Their hairstyle is simply... <3 <3 SMEXY TO THE MAXIMUUUM.
ok, fangirling aside.
I can't believe my family spent $440 in the robinson sales like omg? Still can't accept that.
ok, shock aside.
Just an update. (Though most of you reading my blog should have known alr) I MIGHT be going to Xiamen to attend chinese courses for 4months. And I said, MIGHT. Like, 70%. I'm just waiting for the university to reply me before I pack and leave. No wait, I'll most prolly be flying to Shanghai first before taking an internal flight to xiamen. So, might be leaving in end-August, returning next year end-January. Yep. 4 months. That would mean four months of NO FACEBOOK, NO YOUTUBE, NO MEDIAFIRE. Only tudou and QQ for me. I hope they won't disable blogger. ): or cut off msn, etc.
ok, updates aside.
I'm going to have dinner now. Seeyou.