OMG! I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE WATCHING VIDEOS, especially since tmr's the last but important paper. But omg, my sis told me about SuG's new single. Damn her. Ah well, the vid's here. BUTTERFLY BOY! (:

I so love their costume. Takeru looks totally HAWT! omg stop fangirling.
Oh yea, and GazettE's new album's coming out soon! LEECH! >D
Alice Nine's too! CROSS GAME! >D
Kra's too! :D

omg can't wait! PSC love!

Judgement day

Tomorrow shall be the day i give all my best. Not just tomorrow, but for the rest of the week. Not just me, but everyone in SRJC. I've studied so hard, I've put in my bestest so i will do well. (yea, that's just a form of encouragement) The sms-es my loves sent are really encouraging. They're all so sweet.
I can't wait for this rollercoaster ride through hell to be over. I really have to thank all my loves for the encouragement and of course, dumping in knowledge of what I was supposed to know (a few months ago) into my much not functioning brain.

Let's give our bestest in the examination room and do not give up to the very end!

Screw gone loose

I actually went crazy studying today.
Imagine:
Yesterday - 12nn to 6.30pm: Studying at airport Gloria Jeans (nice cafe though. They give free caramel! :D) 7.30-9.30pm: British Council
Today- 9.30am to 6pm: Kovan Macs 9.20pm to XX : Home studying

Yea, though i do spend alot of time with books, i felt i didn't get much information from it. I can't bloody solve the first MCQ question of Chem, I can't do Phy MCQ. I'm probably getting a 2/20 for my econs again. Math is the only subject that can pull me up, but i doubt so now. I can't bloody do vectors, I can't prove trigo equations, i can't differentiate, stuff like that.

As i was saying, I went crazy. Started laughing very loudly and shouting and spouting some nonsense i-forgot-what. It's ok. All is going to end next week. My Loves, i shall join you soon.

I miss my erobaachan, my girlfriends, my jiiemuii`x, my volleyballers and of cos, most importantly, my beloved family.

Life has no purpose anymore. I really feel numb. So numb that i actually skipped lunch and dinner like zOMG and i'm not at all hungry. I mean like yea, i had suicidal thoughts BUT i'm not that crazy. It's just me thinking how it'll feel like since i felt everything's like a dream. What i did today all felt like a dream. And yea, i actually broke down during Chinese lesson. It's not because my group members are giving me problems, but it's more like i felt I suck as a group leader of my PW group. I'm lazy and I'm forgetful. First, i didn't bind the WR together. Second, i didn't print content page and biblio and annexes. So like i spent half an hour in the com lab trying to print but to no avail. Lucky enough, Sheng Hui let me use her terminal and i manage to print it. And Mr Nahar actually wants it tmr. WTF like made me anxious for nothing. I really hate PW.
Studying after school is great though. I really love my HUGE and RANDOM study group. <3
I can't wait for PW to die!

Like ZOMG 12 more days to freedom i can't wait!

Gorgeous Physics

Had a really wonderful day today, albeit had an omg 2hours of math. )x
Anyhoo, JASMINE HU CAME TO SRJC TODAY OMG MISS HER LIKE SIAOZ.
Today, I finally thought physics' damn gorgeous, as Lisha always said. Yan Xin also agrees. xD We were so high during consultation with Ms Guo!
After that rushed of to meet ss at kovan cos we're having dinner together at hawker centre! The session was short but meaningful.
"You will not know how to treasure your loved ones until they're gone"
Ok, i shall amend this sentence.
"When you've realised they arn't around as much as they used to be, you'll start to miss them"
Ok, sorry for the randomness and emo shit.
Sianger's birthday tmr! 8D Not to mention 4 omg hours of physics.
Yes, FOUR HOURS.

Don't think, FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL

Some little junkies i got from clarke quay. >D


Random ... guy i doodled.
HAH.

School's going to start tomorrow. I feel sick. I hate school. Somehow i developed a phobia for it. Crazy enough, i googled it. I found out it's actually called "DIDASKALEINOPHOBIA"

Possible triggers for school phobia include:

1. Being bullied.
2. Starting school for the first time.
3. Moving to a new area and having to start at a new school and make new friends or just changing schools.
4. Being off school for a long time through illness or because of a holiday.
5. Bereavement (of a person or pet).
6. Feeling threatened by the arrival of a new baby.
7. Having a traumatic experience such as being abused, being raped, having witnessed a tragic event.
8. Problems at home such as a member of the family being very ill.
9. Problems at home such as marital rows, separation and divorce.
10. Violence in the home or any kind of abuse; of the child or of another parent.
11. Not having good friends (or any friends at all).
12. Being unpopular, being chosen last for teams and feeling a physical failure (in games and gymnastics).
13. Feeling an academic failure.
14. Fearing panic attacks when traveling to school or while in school.
(Source: http://www.phobics-awareness.org/schoolphobia.htm)

But of cos, i have to be matured enough to er, conquer my phobia. darn.

Imma tired. Almost slept during Mr Lau's class just now.
Wanted to go home after school. So went to the nearby convenient shop to buy 2 packets of seaweed. Walked to the bus stop with Bex, Yan Xin and Lu. Then Eileen called and we decided to have lunch at heartland mall. Found out that she's actually meeting Sophia and Janice too! So happy, cos i haven't seen soppy for a loooooooong time ler! Ate at KFC and walked to SR. Kena chased out by Security guard. Ridiculous. No slippers in the school compound? It's not like it's going to hurt us to wear slippers in.
So i went home. Must study study study!
Today is a happy day! :D

I'm tired

Literally. Gosh, what kind of ridiculous break is this? And Mr Lau is constantly pressurizing us to study study study study.
Just now before going home, he called me over and we had a random conversation. Shall type it out.

Scene: School concourse, YJ on the phone with mom. Mr Lau supposedly consulting his students who were around him.
Mr Lau: Eh Yun Jia, don't socialize lah.
YJ: Errr. With my mom?
Mr Lau: *speechless* So school ended?
YJ: Yeap.
Mr Lau: Where are you going?
YJ: Home lo.
Mr Lau: Do what?
YJ: Sleep.
Mr Lau: huuuuuuuuh! Why sleep!!! Then you won't have time to study lei! Why don't you just get a cup of coffee and practice math?
YJ: But I'm really sleepy! And I hate coffee.
Mr Lau: Then drink coke lo! Got caffeine.
Random student A: Tea also.
YJ: aiya! But if i'm tired, nothing gets into my brain. So why do i study? xD
Students around: whooooooooooa.

Moral of the story: You can't study if you're tired. No use forcing yourself. The end.

Life's like that

And i bloody hate it.

Ah well, it's really depressing to see so many of my friends erm... depressed. And the worst thing is, I can't do anything to help it. I mean, yea, I'm not the BEST person you can come to for advices, cos i really suck at it. I can listen, but i don't think it really helps.

Yesterday went studying with eileen at clarke quay after CIP and somehow we talked about family stuff. I have no idea why, but somehow i was on the verge of tears during that conversation. Not that I'm on bad terms with my family (mind you I have a loving and caring family ;D). Maybe it's because i felt like i was of no help to her, or it's because I thought about how insensitive i was to my parents. It's just sad to see people on bad terms with their parents. I think all parents love their child. It's just that they have no idea how to express their feelings. A simple car fetch or a random call can show that they want to make up for their negligence.

Maybe what you emo kids need is a little bit of time to think of what your parents have secretly done for you to express their "sorry".