<life in the dump>

To Jm:
我想了，可能我们都没变，只是我们以为对方变了因为我们已经很少再跟ｇｆｓ在一起了。
其实大家都在以为对方变了。但是，我相信，我们还是很爱，很关心对方的，只是我们没仔细地感受这“爱”。我也很想回去ｓｅｃ２的时候。当时我们玩得有多激烈等等的。我可以说２００５年是我一辈子最难忘的一年。回想起来，我很guilty没和你们spend more time．我现在知道，　ｇｆｓ对我是特别总要的。。　只是不知道你们懂不懂。
To Gfs
It's time we should sit down and talk again.

Wh00! Like FINALLY drama finished. Though i must say the skit is not really up to standard. WTH. Who cares? Most of the casts or VO don't listen to our advise. Act so SUPERIOR. Damn you good for nothings. esp. THAT person. freak. In the end the whole thing is so fake thanks to you. rar. Forget it.
Well, anyway i must thank Heng Tiong today for helping me cut my apples =D Kind soul. Cos i dunno how to eat apples.. as in the whole one. Pathetic right? raar!!
Finally it's the damn hols. I'm so going to relax.................... zzz....

Drama today was.... ok. Not very pleased with the acting, but, what can i do? sigh.
Hope tomorrow will turn out great.

I'm sorry ='(
Do you believe in spirits? I wanna go temple to pray and hope to feel better.
Well, drama was fun yesterday.

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO!!
I dunno who to talk to now, seriously. Everyone's so busy with their life, study, play... who is left? Thanks SuShan for always talking to me and cared a lil.
I need a diary, I need something... or maybe someone. There is only a few left in this world who actually cares. I want someone to listen to what i wanna say, all my rants and unhappiness, not someone who'll just say "Your life is full of unhappiness" or "be happy!" before i can finish what i say. Life's so full of hatred and anger and sadness. I feel so lonely nowadays. Nobody cares please.
Nobody knows how i feel, nor i think they care.
Now, why bother reading?

Ytd went out with my darlings xq and mich~
Watched Lovewrecked.....
I was late when i went to meet them =P By just some mins.
Back to the movie, lovewrecked.WONDERFUL!!! Ryan is just soooo cute and HAWT please~
After the movie we took neoprints. took two. One before the movie and one after.
After the movie, we went shopping for a while before going home. the two girls bought the same army print pants. zzz.
Took Mrt to heartland mall to meet my parents.
On the mrt, we saw a kinda cute english guy. Wh33~
OKOK. At heartland mall, went to Sushan's shop. hees.
Chatted with her. Then my mom came. We went home~
shall scan the neoprints soon~

my tag board is so.... *cold wind blows*
zzz. in the morn went for that blabla NE talk. zzzz... Then got a prize. lol!
After that went compass with stupid(and really stupid) qi to collect her bookmark on the library lost and found. SEE? So dumb haiiiyerr!
Later going out with them.. Waiting for their call..zz..

So tired. I know i kept saying that but yes, that's the truth.
Been sleeping later than usual. Cos of studies and Drama~~~~~!!!
Almost every night now i hafta sms the casts to bring their costumes and other what nots.
And they take forever. They can reply fast, yes. BUT THEY ASKS TOO MANY QUESTIONS!!! RAR!!! can't they understand? The guys are good but the girls are ALWAYS complaining. "ahh. I don't wanna wear pants, i wanna wear skirts." "Ahh. This skirt is so short! And the shirt is too pinkish! The sleeve is too short blablabla"
zzz.
Yay! going out with my girlfriends stupid qi and mich yeo ar yo tomorrow. xD I'm so creative.

Tiring day...................................................
mom woke me up at 7.45........................................................ when i was planning to wake up at 8.10..
zzz.
Went for drama. Sub in Girlwhiz. blahblah, school.......... took height and weight.
Damn, I don't believe i'm only 165. weight is still the same, 63. I know I'm fat so don't need to tell me.

/edited
Class was fun cos many teachers are not here! wh33ts!
Played truth or dare. Was fun.. and sometimes embarrasing..
After school went to eat with Ethel. Talked about alot of things.
Anyway, check this out.
http://www.callcentermovie.com/movie/movie2.html
funny. heh.
Anyway.. more and more of my classmates know about my diet project. Many people are shocked that i wanted to diet.
And that blahblah Sushan and Manfred kept looking out for everything i eat. When I eat something, they go like "diet diet!!"
=.=
Milfred told me to exercise instead of dieting. Cos I need nutrients. But I kinda don't really enjoy sweating xD
Ethel said that I'm not really fat. I'm just cute. Why thank you ethel, i love you very much.
xq suggested me doing AT LEAST 100 sit ups a day. trying. When it comes to losing weight, i must listen to that moron's (xq's) advise. She said eat fruits for every meal.
My mom said the same thing, eat fruits for every meal (I think they are psychic or sth. They say the same thing!) But she say of cos not every.. Like, during breakfast and dinner. I think I'll puke out apples one day (Since it's the ONLY fruit i like to eat, aside from papaya.)
JIA YOU JIA YOU!

Physics and amath test tomorrow

*pulls up socks*

Watch out, Usa-chan, you're first in my buying list now..
Usa-chan: NoooooOOOooooOOOoooOOoo!!!!
Btw, Usa is the short form for rabbit in Japanese.
$36... T.T... Hafta stop buying manga for 7weeks....

Oh ya. Just realised sth.
Reference: pictures of date 8Aug06.
The background people's facial expressions are funny. xD
Ok. I know you guys will say I'm lame or sth.
Oh ya. And some of you readers may have noticed the counter i put up.
FYI, I'm my 100th reader -.-"
And I didn't know I have so many readers... I know regulars are my gfs, sushan, my two cousins...
Who are the others? lol!
Holidays shalt commeth in a few days time. =)
I shalt enjoy while I still can.
Oh yes. Yesterday when browsing thru a shop i frequent in chinatown, the aunty asked me if i wanna get anything for my teachers. I'm like, no. Soon at night when i went out with my uncle, he asked which teacher do i like most. I'm like, none. I don't like our teachers. xD
Well, maybe some of the drama teachers but i don't like them when they're giving attitudes xD

Bought some stuffs ytd.
Koda Kumi Cd. 2 for only 9.90!

Shirt for .... 23dollars

And a pig. Radio. for 15 only!

Slept for 13 hours straight today! ..although i still feel like sleeping somemore. blame my mom for waking me up just because it's 10 in the morn. zzzz. She usually don't allow me to sleep further than 10 'cept for special reasons. I wonder why....zzz. Broke the record for this month - 12 hours. (which is kinda usual.)
I wanna sleep somemore!......... zzzz.......
Anyway, drama was very fun ytd. That Arvin kept making me laugh. THAT ASS! xD
And Donovan was so pervertic (as usual)
Me and Yu Wei shared a... cloth? The one the malay guy wears.. the skirt thing? lol. Then we decide to give the cloth to Sushan cos she's cold and she has too little fats, unlike us! xD
I played fighting game with JY. XD!!
We have: 2 guns (water gun) and a sword (fake lightsaber)
Then we have to say "en garde" before fighting. LOL!! THen at first he use the lightsaber to fight. Kept hitting me. Then we change weapons. I hit him and he fell on the floor. His tooth is bleeding. LOL! But he still wanna play. Oh wells.
Then after drama went to Heartland mall CC with SY. Spent half an hour inside!! Record for this term.
Went home...... Met my bro in the bus. Er.. actually we didn't see each other until we reached our house's bus stop -.-!|

Sorry but i have to rant about my fucking neighbour again.
YOU FUCKARDS LAN JIAO CHEEBYE!!!
Could you cheebyes-nothing-to-do-fuckards please stop "harrasing" my family?
Anyone wants to know what happened, let me tell you.
THat fucking lan jiao slut sia lan daughter named Ethel Jean Fucking Tan said that my brother is stinky. GO FUCK YOUR FATHER LAH. IF YOU THINK IT'S SMELLY THEN JUMP OFF THE BUILDING LAR! GO KILL YOURSELF SO YOU WON'T HAVE TO FUCKING SMELL MY BROTHER.
AND THAT FUCKING CHEEBYE KYUMOU FATHER OF THEM NAMED ROTI JOHN FUCKING TAN SCOLDED MY DAD FOR TALKING LOUDLY ON THE PHONE. SAY "ZHUO SI MI LAN JIAO KANG TAO GONG ANE DUA SIA (do what business must talk so loud).
Same thing as what i said to the daughter. GO FUCKING JUMP OFF THE BUILDING SO YOU WON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO ANY OF MY DAD'S LOUD TALK OK FUCKER?
CAN YOU GUYS JUST FUCKING DIE? GET KILLED, GET BURNT, GET SKINNED, GET SUCKED, JUST FUCKING DIE YOU LANJIAOS!!!
If killing is not an offense, i will first bathe my neighbor in steamy hot water. THen the skin will become soft so I'll skin them. I'll slowly roast them in slow fire... cook cook.... After 6hours or so, I'll shave their head. I'll stuff their hair into their mouth. Then i'll put bleach in their mouth. I'll stuff lots of bees in their fucking nose and poke their eyes with satay stick.I'll make them drink the blood that comes out of their eyes. I'll pull out their toe nails, one by one. I'll then cut off their toes. and make them eat it (I'm nice enough not to let them eat the nails^^.) I'll cut open their stomach. Cut all the way up to the heart. I'll poke the heart, then put salt on it. I'll staple everything back together. Then I shall cut off their heads. Not at once but slowly.... using a blunt knife... slowly slowly..... until everything is finished, I'll display their heads in orchard road and hopefully their heads will be spat on.
I know I'm too kind to them^^
THAT FUCKING CHEEBYES AND LANJIAOS LIVE AT 68B WOODLEIGH PARK. BEWARE!! DO NOT GET CLOSE!!!

加油！！！
がんばって！！！！
GOGO!!!!
OPERATION WEIGHT LOSE STARTS NOW!!!
I'M RESISTING...RESISTING!!!!!
MUST LOSE 8KG BY NEXT YEAR!! RARRRRR!!!!
TRYING TO LIMIT MY CHOCOLATES AND SNACKS INTAKE!
NOTE TO PEOPLE: DO NOT ALLOW ME TO EAT FOOD HIGH IN FATS, etc.
THANKYOUVERYMUCH!!
BEAT ME IF YOU SEE ME EATING SNACKS.
(CANDIES NOT INCLUDED xD)

Symptoms of self going to be infected with the nerd disease:
1. getting very pissed when stationary cannot be found.
2. Will not give up on a math question until tried for a looong time.
3. Will study before an exam even if for 15mins.
Percentage of self being infected: 10.5%
Notes: Infection will start to build up until it reaches 80.23%
Sign,
Dr.Tan

aahh... didn't update yesterday cos i was tooooo sleepy... Now too, but i really have to update on ytd before i miss out the nice parts =) zzzzz.
o..k.. THursday we finally had a gfs outing. took a zillion photos. (esp. the jumping one.-.-) Crystal insisted we take it until we get it right -.- Then got laughed by some malays in the water -.-. Anyhow, SCREW THEM.
ok... let's go baaaaaaaaaaaack till ytd morning 7.04am. I woke up feeling excited. I ate Char Kuey Tiao and slacked for a while before bathing, pack my bag, and go offffff.
Walked to the bus stop.. while waiting for bus, Crystal called "EHH YJ! THEY SAY IS 9o'clock meet NOT 10o'clock LEH!!!"
I'm like WHAT!? cos crystal told me to meet at 9 before meeting jm and xq at white sands. planning to reach at 10.
Sothen rush rush. Rushed to compass and TL was taking her own sweet time to come luh.
Took cab down to white sands to meet them. piang, 8.90!!
Met them at WS and toook Mrt to Bedok and took bus to East COast.
FINALLY REACHED! Me, jm, xq and mich rented the blades while cryst and tl rented the bike. Rar! Lousy blades xP
Had fun. xqkept falling down and poor me have to pull her up(sometimes). Then keep teaching her. She said she won't give up. wow! She's getting better but still not very good xD
After an hour they returned the bikes and blades... WHAT ABOUT OUR 2nd HOUR FREE??!! rar! They claimed they are tired. zz.
We went to the beach. Played with sand, played with water! Wh000000000000000!!! I love playing in water! Esp. when you almost get pulled into the deep sea~~ Oh yes, the water's polluted xD AND WE FOUND A PAD THERE!! EWWWW!!!!
Took zillions of pictures. Will be able to see at Crystal's blog xD I'm sure she will post it yea?
We went home at 4-5.

jm showed me her love,

She forced me to show it back.
So her love went out of control.. xD

Me:zzzz
Jm looked alm0st the same, but it's not xD

Photos taken today! Was a fun day =D CAMWHORED! xD

This is Hao Zhi cutting the bread when we went out with our Pri sch friends xD

GFS TEE SHIRT!!! Wh00Ts.

Front.

Back.
Thanks to jayemm and lovelike for collecting and making the Tees <3
I think it really looks like a soccer shirt.
HengTiong asked me what shirt was that for. I said soccer. I'm in the Singapore's Team. I think he almost believe until i say I was in the S'pore team xD
Will be looking forward to gfs outing on 10th!!!! <3
Make sure you guys don't back out!!

Went to COSPLAY QUEST today with cousin and GR. Took some photos..

Yup, It's ichigo!

Err. He's being weird ah.

So then I went to bugis halfway to meet my mom for shopping! Didn't really get want i wanted but got a pair of slippers and Magazine. Spent quite a lot alr!! >.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4665/1167/1600/100_1196.jpg">

Isn't the poster biiiig?

xq: What I think is, I live my life rather happily. It's just sometimes there are just somethings that will make you go crazy and start to rant crazyly yea? I'm sure everyone has some things they are unsatisfied with. So I think it's normal not to be satisfied with alot of things yes? =)
I think why you and jm can suddenly post that "I live my life rather unhappily" is because I suddenly posted my thoughts out and exaggerate it quite alot yea? Different people have different opinions. So I respect what you think. Don't worry, I'm not picking a war of words here. I just wanna let you guys know ok? =)

Came back from Tiong Bahru Plaza with my mom and granny. Granny bought a ring and i bought a pair of earrings. Altogether $75. And that fella accidentally put another ring inside.. -.- so my mom just keep it... That's the... weirdest thing that happened? Poor fella.

Cut the sheep's heart today! Wh00ts!! I LOVE IT!
I'm not sick ok?
Bio Test tomorrow.
Forum people kept asking me to cosplay. I CAN'T!!!
Anyway, just noticed something about my classmates. I realised that actually they are a bunch of really fun people (that is, if you hang out with the correct people?). I actually found out that I really had fun with 3e1 people. I realised sometimes that I actually kinda hang out more with 3e1 than with my gfs. Not that I prefer them or anything so don't get the wrong idea yea? But sometimes, seriously, sometimes i feel that people don't notice my presence. Sometimes people who knows me and i know that fella can just walk pass me without even smiling or saying hi. Is it cos we're sick of the people we usually hang out with and decide to hang out more with the new friends we just made? Think about this. If you have a choice, and your usual clique asks if you wanna go catch a movie with them. At the same time, your NEWER friends asked you if you wanna catch the same movie. Which side would you choose? Most of you will be like, "OF COS CLIQUE LA, DUH" But think again. Do you mean what you say?
All those above is just my opinion, you can choose to ignore it if you want. I'm just saying what i really think. Not that I want attention from people, but at least let me know that you saw me.
I finally let it out.
Now i finally dare to post my thoughts.
Another thing is that the adults are not giving us privacy. Whatever we do, we'll be under supervision. I mean, we are not little kids anymore. The reason why little kids or teenagers keep a diary with a lock is cos some things they don't want their parents/guardians to know and i really think that adults should really respect their decisions. I know parents will go like,"Their my children. They shouldn't keep anything from me." Everyone has secrets. I'm sure adults also have secrets that they don't wanna tell their child right? And during their childhood period, I'm sure they also have secrets they don't wanna tell their parents too yea? Same concept can be used on the child. So just.. respect their privacy. Respect their thoughts. Respect their decisions. Wait. Not only them. US. Put yourself in their shoes. Would you like it if your parent "intrude" into your privacy? I'm sure it'll be no. If it's a yes, why would you keep a diary in the first place?
raaar. Thank you for your kind attention. End of rants.

Oh ya, and did i mention I get VERY STRESSED with Mrs Yap around? Yea? At first i thought she's a nice teacher. Then she got more evil and evil. She comes in everytime with a black face. Which make me verrry stressed. Mood swings teachers are what i'm afraid of. I mean, hey! If you wanna teach, please teach with a nice face ok? Like, who's got the mood to listen to you if you always potray a BLACK face whenever you step into the classroom? Maybe she wanna act serious or anything but hey, I DON'T LIKE IT. And i'm sure nobody likes it too. She always say "Please ask any questions if you are not sure." We asked. Then what kind of answers do we get? "This one I did teach you before!!!" and then starts nagging and gives attitudes like we should know the answers. HELLO?! If we know, do we hafta ask you? Please mind your attitude if you plan to make studies with your students enjoyable.
OH YES, I PASSED PHYSICS!! FOR THE FIRST TIME, YEA!! 15/30.
Tomorrow will be dissecting the sheep's heart. Wish me luck.
OH YES! My mom just won te 4d or toto. She plan to take us for shopping on Saturday! Wh00ts! Hope i can get some of the things i want =)

I DISLIKE THAT ESWARAN!
hearing his name just makes me SICK.
[WARNING: Mild vulgarities may be seen. People who are allergic to it may choose to skip this post.]
That motherfrig eswaran. He ALWAYS PICK ON ME. alright now, the first time he picked on me is about not bring my pe shirt and for resting for a while. That one, i have no comments. Now today, he pick on me again. He told me to stay behind cos he wanted to tell me sth. He fucking made me wait for more than 15blardy mins. Wasting my time yea? Made my mom wait also. Reason for picking on me today: 1. I came in late today. 2. I am not active in pe.
FIRST OF ALL. POINT NUMBER ONE.
I came in late because Sherilyn took my skirt and made me run around to catch her. So I was late. I told him the reason.
Eswaran: ok. That is your own problem. you have to learn how to manage. You should tell her not to take your stuffs.
Me: Ya i did tell her to return me my skirt but she don't listen.
Eswaran: ok. You still haveto learn how to manage. ah, don't come in late because of these tiny little problem. You must learn how to solve it. And not only today, you are also late for every lessons.
Me: NO.
Eswaran: Not all but almost every lesson. You have to be the last to stroll into our lessons.
Me:...
I AM NOT THE LAST OK?! I only came in last for 2 lessons. IS THAT ALMOST ALL LESSONS?! YOU mean we only have about two lessons? WONDERFUL, AMAZING! I NEVER KNEW THAT.
SECOND POINT.
Eswaran: Another thing is ah, that you are not very active during pe lessons.
Me: ok.
IF I'M FUCKING NOT ACTIVE, DO YOU THINK THAT I'LL BE SWEATING AND WILL I BE FALLING DOWN FOR FUCKING 3 TIMES SAVING THE BALL?! yea? So I'm not active by sweating and falling down. OH I SEE.
I DISLIKE HIM I DISLIKE HIM. JUST SEEING HIS FACE MAKES ME WANNA PUKE.
-end of rants.

Oh ya. Something funny happened. Ok, quite funny.
Recess time, saw xq and 瑷瑷。 Then saw ai ai got new paul frank watch. Then I say must be fake. Then ai ai say ya. Then I say she won't have the money to buy real one mah. She give me that face. LOL LA!!!
Then chem lesson went to lab to do experiment. Saw ai ai beside our lab. Then she diao me!! TT^TT She gave me that face. Anyway, it was kinda funny!
ai ai was so cute when she give that face. Makes me wanna laugh till i die xD

[NOTE: Ai ai is MICHELLE!. ai ai this name is so nice~]

Speaking of names, I thought for the names i should give to my future child.
For a male one will be named Kain. Nice name aye?
Girl's name will be.... I forgot.....